KillerKimmy
08-19-2007, 10:51 AM
I've been told there are bikers who have gone down, and those who haven't gone down yet. I just joined the gone down on the 5th of August when I hit dirt on an off ramp and crashed into a guard rail. :crying
I don't remember the accident and much of what happened after it. Broke my clavicle (which they didn't set and now I have a shortened bone-which I'm trying to get a second opinion on without medical insurance). And my bike is totaled.
No fault covers you? NOPE. Not if you are on a motorcycle so my $8,000+ hospital bill will have to collect dust while I decide whether or not to get myself another job to pick up the slack since I can no longer scuba dive/clean boat bottoms/tow boats for my money.
I thought sitting around wondering what happened to my life was horrible BEFORE I broke myself! Now I don't even have a bike to take my depression away.
Some have given me the "I told you so" speech. Gee thanks for the positive energy. Maybe if so many people weren't focusing so much on "Shes gonna' hurt herself/die on that bike" things could look better. It is because of that mentality, that I'm also getting the "This was a sign that it will be WORSE next time" and the whole I need to quit while I'm ahead thing starts.
If that is the road I take, then that means that I wasn't accepting the notion that I could have gotten hurt/killed on a bike in the first place. And that it took this incident to remind me of that. Same goes for my BASE jumping, ot skydiving, or even my commercial scuba diving and bad weather boat towing/salvage! However no one seems to mention my job, and my jumping.
I'm thinking that all of this input is making me feel nervous about getting out there again, which is GONNA' happen. Though that bike didn't get me the friends I thought it would, I loved it as much as I knew I would, and I WILL get another one and go for it again. I just hope I can let the non-supportive comments bounce off me so I can attract safe and fun rides, instead of doubting myself.
Support is hard to find. Maybe even more so when you're a girl.
I don't remember the accident and much of what happened after it. Broke my clavicle (which they didn't set and now I have a shortened bone-which I'm trying to get a second opinion on without medical insurance). And my bike is totaled.
No fault covers you? NOPE. Not if you are on a motorcycle so my $8,000+ hospital bill will have to collect dust while I decide whether or not to get myself another job to pick up the slack since I can no longer scuba dive/clean boat bottoms/tow boats for my money.
I thought sitting around wondering what happened to my life was horrible BEFORE I broke myself! Now I don't even have a bike to take my depression away.
Some have given me the "I told you so" speech. Gee thanks for the positive energy. Maybe if so many people weren't focusing so much on "Shes gonna' hurt herself/die on that bike" things could look better. It is because of that mentality, that I'm also getting the "This was a sign that it will be WORSE next time" and the whole I need to quit while I'm ahead thing starts.
If that is the road I take, then that means that I wasn't accepting the notion that I could have gotten hurt/killed on a bike in the first place. And that it took this incident to remind me of that. Same goes for my BASE jumping, ot skydiving, or even my commercial scuba diving and bad weather boat towing/salvage! However no one seems to mention my job, and my jumping.
I'm thinking that all of this input is making me feel nervous about getting out there again, which is GONNA' happen. Though that bike didn't get me the friends I thought it would, I loved it as much as I knew I would, and I WILL get another one and go for it again. I just hope I can let the non-supportive comments bounce off me so I can attract safe and fun rides, instead of doubting myself.
Support is hard to find. Maybe even more so when you're a girl.